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labellementeuse) wrote2010-06-24 06:52 pm
labellementeuse) wrote2010-06-24 06:52 pm
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Urgh
Advice requested!
Tomorrow night I have two potential engagements (of course, because I can go weeks without having anything to do on a Friday night and then I always end up having two or three things on the same night). I have either: first meeting of a bookgroup some women in my class are starting, or Fangirl Friday (just what it sounds like: Wellington fangirl meet-up.) To be brutally honest, I'd most like to go to Fangirl Friday because I know a few people who will be there & they're lovely! (And I'm not just saying that because they might be reading this, although: hi.) Also it's in a location that is handy for everything incl. walking home. Meanwhile, bookgroup will be awkward as there will be plenty of people there I don't know & I don't think I'll be able to drag anyone else along, and also the people in my class who are organising it are the super-glamorous, put-together people who make me feel like a giant, clumsy, inarticulate idiot. HOWEVER, I hve hopes that repeated exposure to that sort of person will make me feel a little less giant, clumsy, and inarticulate around a) them, in class and b) people like them, in my professional life. Plus also I really like book groups & need to make friends/contacts within my class or tbh I'll never get a job.
So um. Advices? Anyone?
Relatedly: I've been off class a bit lately and I found out today that one of the groups I'm working in has done all this stuff under heaps of pressure and I had no idea. Which: OK, I was away. But on the other hand, I feel a little bit aggrieved that I had no idea what was going on and wasn't able to help out, which I would have been if I'd been told. :-/ I kind of want to write the project manager an email and say that I feel really out of the loop and I find that really stressful. Should I bother? I know that I would appreciate this kind of email! But I don't want to seem confrontational. Sigh?
Tomorrow night I have two potential engagements (of course, because I can go weeks without having anything to do on a Friday night and then I always end up having two or three things on the same night). I have either: first meeting of a bookgroup some women in my class are starting, or Fangirl Friday (just what it sounds like: Wellington fangirl meet-up.) To be brutally honest, I'd most like to go to Fangirl Friday because I know a few people who will be there & they're lovely! (And I'm not just saying that because they might be reading this, although: hi.) Also it's in a location that is handy for everything incl. walking home. Meanwhile, bookgroup will be awkward as there will be plenty of people there I don't know & I don't think I'll be able to drag anyone else along, and also the people in my class who are organising it are the super-glamorous, put-together people who make me feel like a giant, clumsy, inarticulate idiot. HOWEVER, I hve hopes that repeated exposure to that sort of person will make me feel a little less giant, clumsy, and inarticulate around a) them, in class and b) people like them, in my professional life. Plus also I really like book groups & need to make friends/contacts within my class or tbh I'll never get a job.
So um. Advices? Anyone?
Relatedly: I've been off class a bit lately and I found out today that one of the groups I'm working in has done all this stuff under heaps of pressure and I had no idea. Which: OK, I was away. But on the other hand, I feel a little bit aggrieved that I had no idea what was going on and wasn't able to help out, which I would have been if I'd been told. :-/ I kind of want to write the project manager an email and say that I feel really out of the loop and I find that really stressful. Should I bother? I know that I would appreciate this kind of email! But I don't want to seem confrontational. Sigh?
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