Disappointed?

So, just went for the final interview with Wayne, who I'd been doing to auditions for the story recording with, and he sat me down and told me very seriously and solemnly that he had bad news, that they weren't going to be able to record Roselyne because his programming just got cut, and he has to play the stories he's already recorded, not the ones he was intending on recording.

...I'm not sure what I feel about this. Mostly, because I'm running on four or five hours' sleep a night and even that's not good sleep and I'm insanely tired and busy and stressed, I think I'm relieved. I was going to have to edit some of it to make it transferrable onto radio- I don't write to be read aloud, so some of it was either confusing or plain dumb- and I just don't have time, so mostly, relief is uppermost. Of course.... I'm also kind of disappointed (also a little annoyed that I had to go to two meetings which took up a LOT of time and contributed to the whole not-sleeping thing, and now they cancel. I mean, why couldn't they have done it at the beginning of the week?) because it would have been good in terms of exposure, also kinda a pride thing. But oh well, that's life.

Also, last night I took out my student loan, checked my savings account, and worked out my spendings- including things like transport, travel and daily expenses- are going to be coming out of $50 a week. I have no words for how annoyed I am that my Dad decided to pi8tch a fit and tell me he wasn't going to buy me anything ever again (apparently, he actually meant he would buy my stuff I can afford to buy myself- soap and stuff- but not stuff he already promised me he would buy that i need and can't afford, like a computer, sneakers, and CD player. Shit.) *headdesk*