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Apr. 3rd, 2009
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Apr. 3rd, 2009 03:59 pmJesus fucking christ.
The regalia people just emailed me to let me know that I don't need to pay for my regalia and am eligible for wearing the John Garrett gown, so the NZ Federation of Graduate Women will pay for my regalia. Oh, I think, that's pretty cool, but I didn't know anything about that, so I phone them up and I'm like "So... I didn't hear anything about that." And she's like "Oh, I assumed the department would write to you!" and then I'm like "Well... they didn't." Turns out it's this Scholarship, not a hell of a lot of money but something, for a 3rd year student continuing to Honours in English... at Canterbury. So, because I'm not at Canterbury, I'm not eligible.
Thing is?
If I had KNOWN about this, I would have STAYED. I was tossing up between Christchurch and Wellington, I went to Wellington because I might possibly be able to get a job, the application process for which ate up most of my summer, really fucked around with what I was doing, my financial situation, etc, and which I ultimately didn't get. But if in November - or, hell, in FEBRUARY - I'd gotten a letter which said "Yo, we'll give you some money to go to Christchurch" - I would have said fuck it and GONE. Which would have been a much fucking better decision for me in about ten different ways.
But now I'm NOT eligible, I DON'T get the money or the award which means I guess I can't even put it on my fucking CV. I just - argh! I'm so furious! How does this fucking happen? NOT FAIR.
The regalia people just emailed me to let me know that I don't need to pay for my regalia and am eligible for wearing the John Garrett gown, so the NZ Federation of Graduate Women will pay for my regalia. Oh, I think, that's pretty cool, but I didn't know anything about that, so I phone them up and I'm like "So... I didn't hear anything about that." And she's like "Oh, I assumed the department would write to you!" and then I'm like "Well... they didn't." Turns out it's this Scholarship, not a hell of a lot of money but something, for a 3rd year student continuing to Honours in English... at Canterbury. So, because I'm not at Canterbury, I'm not eligible.
Thing is?
If I had KNOWN about this, I would have STAYED. I was tossing up between Christchurch and Wellington, I went to Wellington because I might possibly be able to get a job, the application process for which ate up most of my summer, really fucked around with what I was doing, my financial situation, etc, and which I ultimately didn't get. But if in November - or, hell, in FEBRUARY - I'd gotten a letter which said "Yo, we'll give you some money to go to Christchurch" - I would have said fuck it and GONE. Which would have been a much fucking better decision for me in about ten different ways.
But now I'm NOT eligible, I DON'T get the money or the award which means I guess I can't even put it on my fucking CV. I just - argh! I'm so furious! How does this fucking happen? NOT FAIR.
